Lean on me

In the middle of today, I curled up on the office floor searching for a Via packet. A friend came in to find me there, unbeknownst to her, on the verge of tears. "I just need this Via to make the day all better." To which the wisest 19 year old I know replied, "this is like what Nate was talking about on the retreat. That we can't make our day better with a song or a break or a sassy treat. We have to look to The Lord." I, of course, just felt bad then and staggered away with my Via.

As I stood at the ice machine, making my iced coffee, I let her words sink in. And I realized this was a repeat of week one as a work crew boss. If I try to do it on my own, not only will I fail, but I'll go down in flames (and tears). So instead, I have to look to The Lord. Let him get me through the long days. He knows the words to say to work crew kids. He has the strength to stand for 12 hours in a hot kitchen. He has the wisdom to lead the floor. I don't. At least not on my own.

And lo and behold, the night ended well. Feeling joyful and well cared for. Because when we ask him to show up, he does.